Drone Butch Blues

by Your Heart Breaks

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Drone Butch Blues is a queer concept album based on the writings of historic and contemporary GLBTQI authors. With a focus on stories surrounding queer community, Drone Butch Blues touches on topics of secret and forbidden love, sex with strangers, the lives of hustlers, the impact of AIDS on homosexuals, historic events and rebellion all interwoven with the personal narrative of Clyde Petersen. Striving to examine the contemporary gap between generations of queers and their elders, Petersen turns to written materials to find buried remnants of gay culture and creative vibrant humans, lost to the plague of AIDS. What emerges from this exploration is Drone Butch Blues, the 9th full-length album from a twenty-year career as Your Heart Breaks.

Produced by Karl Blau and engineered by Nicholas Wilbur at The Unknown in Anacortes, Washington, the base of the album is drone. Each track containing it's own unique drone element, and is then layered with folk instruments. You won't find any drum sets on Drone Butch Blues. Instead you will discover rhythm in the textures of the strings and pianos. Drone Butch Blues lives somewhere between a memorial service and a queer anthem, trying to encapsulate or understand such a historic loss of a vibrant generation of artists, while celebrating intimate moments shared in queer communities.

DRONE BUTCH BLUES READING LIST

Stone Butch Blues / Leslie Feinberg
A Restricted Country / Joan Nestle
The Carnivorous Lamb / Agustin Gomez-Arcos
City of Night / John Rechy
Lesbian Poetry: An Anthology / Elly Bulkin, Joan Larkin
Valencia / Michelle Tea
In the City of Shy Hunters / Tom Spanbauer
The Pox Lover / Anne-christine d'Adesky
Rubyfruit Jungle / Rita Mae Brown
Since I Laid My Burden Down / Brontez Purnell
Tomboy Survival Guide / Ivan Coyote
First Spring Grass Fire / Rae Spoon
Close to the Knives / David Wojnarowicz
Switch / Carol Guess
Fun Home / Alison Bechdel
About a Girl / Sarah McCarry
Where the Words End and my Body Begins / Amber Dawn
Not my Father's Son / Alan Cumming
Carsick / John Waters

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released April 19, 2019

DRONE BUTCH BLUES BAND

Karl Blau (K Records, Laura Veirs, Earth)
Kyle Field (Little Wings)
Kelley Deal (The Breeders, R. Ring)
Kimya Dawson (Moldy Peaches, Juno)
Dylan Carlson (Earth)
Lori Goldston (Nirvana, Earth)
Adrienne Davies (Earth)
Wynne Greenwood (Tracy & the Plastics)
Jordan Smith(Jordan O'Jordan)
Zach Burba (iji, Dear Nora)
Jacob Jaffe (Younger Shoulder)
Jonas Haskins (Earth, Low Hums)

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Your Heart Breaks is a queer band based in Seattle, Washington. Originally founded by Clyde Petersen in Bellingham, Washington in 1999, Your Heart Breaks has toured the world for 20 years as both a solo performer and a large ensemble. Their new album, Drone Butch Blues comes out on Sofaburn Records in April 2019. ... more

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Track Name: Our Forbidden Country
Our Forbidden Country
(Verse: Droney A, Chorus: A, G) (Guitar Tuned down half step)

Before the plague
Before the rage
Before the body count

Angel-faced young men of summer
Gathered on these shores

Women loving women loving women in sunlight
A salty kiss on sandy skin
Lovers limbs entwined

Past the Breakers, sick with hunger, Our Forbidden Country
Past the benches , built for lovers, Our Forbidden Country

Kept it like a secret ‘til you could keep it no more
Found love in a subway station, pressed against the bathroom door
Dare to let your glances linger longer than before
A city park, the darkest corner, kneeled upon the forest floor

Past the benches built for lovers, Our Forbidden Country
Past the Breakers, sick with hunger, Our Forbidden Country

Once a lover, once a fighter, once a fierce unruly queen
Now carried through the streets, their mortal body’s but a dream
No Liberation, liberation without memory
Buried deep in our endurance, our collective fury

Past the front doors to the alleys of Our Forbidden Country
Past the marchers, angry rallies, Our Forbidden Country
Past the benches built for lovers, Our Forbidden Country
Past the breakers, sick with hunger, Our Forbidden Country

Another night unfolds, Why Sleep? In our forbidden country
Another night unfolds, Arise! In our forbidden country
Track Name: Late Nights in the Lab
Late Nights in the Lab
(Chords: A, D…)

I was 17, a student at the experimental college
Late nights in the lab on the A/B Roll Edit
Living off Luckies and marijuana
A young party monster, looking for trouble

Driving down the I-5 to get to a show
Or the reservation liquor when the others were closed
Whiskey for my coffee for my early class,
Queer Poli-Sci, a little over my head

I remember you a teacher at the experimental college
A tough queer femme with a political edge
Hell bent on the ideals of social justice
Teaching Ecofeminist Documentary Production

But it must have been lonely in that small town,
You must have wanted so much more,
Just to get the hell out.
A single gay bar with a single drag queen,
Surrounded by your students,
With fake ID’s.

We sat that night after class
Late in the lab
I shuffled papers from the students into one neat little stack
And made a note on a list, tapes I loaned out
These were just the little things from the times we hung out

I admit I had a crush that I slowly got over
And I know I had questions like had you been older
In the back of my mind, in the video lab
There’s a knock on the door
You’re holding a 6-pack

Cause I’m 17 at experimental college
Late nights in the lab on the A/B Roll Edit
Living off Luckies and marijuana
A shy queer kid looking for a role model.
17 at experimental college
Late nights in the lab on the A/B Roll Edit
Living off Luckies and marijuana
A shy queer kid looking for a role model.
Track Name: Wanting to Stay
Wanting to Stay

[VERSE: C Am G F C / C F G F C CHORUS: C Am G F CGF CGF]

You were a southern storm
Hypnotic and bright
You were sand in my shoes
You were all that I knew for a little while

Sudden and cruel
Soaking me through
Frozen in fear
Somehow wanting more
Was all that I knew

But oh for a gentle breeze
on one sunny day
I was a crab on the shore
Digging my little home
Singing wanting to stay, wanting to stay, wanting to stay
wanting to stay, wanting to stay, wanting to stay

You were Kudzu vine
Blocking out all the light
Weaving in between trees
Climbing taller each day
Chocking out all the life

Persistent and strong
A weed through and through
Spreading far and wide
No place that could hide from your system of roots

But oh for some sweet relief
For a tidal wave
I was a crab on the shore
Digging my little home
Singing wanting to stay, wanting to stay, wanting to stay
wanting to stay, wanting to stay, wanting to stay
Track Name: In the Life
In the Life

(VERSE: E A E B CHORUS: A E A B E)

I’ve been a trapper, out cruising the tender
The hungry young hustlers in the city of night
I’ve been a terror, a fierce younger lover
I’ve traded my body at times to survive

I’m haunting the hollows
the back alley boroughs
the dark movie theaters and discos and dives

If we hovered so nearly
Together just barely
Felt the wonder between us
What wonder we’d find?

Could you count all of those who abandoned the fight
Or list off the names of those who have died
In the city of night, the death tolls were raging,
The church bells were ringing, but not for our kind

Please pardon my yearnings
They hit without warning
My heart so commanding, my body, my mind
And all of our secrets that we hold between us
All shine so clear in the glowing moonlight

We’re haunting the hollows
the back alley boroughs
Dark movie theaters and discos and dives
If we hovered so nearly
Together just barely
Felt the wonder between us
Dear what would we find

If we hovered so nearly
Together just barely
Felt the wonder between us
Dear what might we find
Track Name: Deceit and Deceive
Deceit and Deceive

[E A E / C#m A E]

A safe full of secrets, so dark and so deep
Young horse-whisperer,
Who knows not to speak
When there is no need.

A vision so lovely
A swan so deceived.
It cried out for days
In love with the view
Of what it perceived.

Oh falseness entangled
The human of beings.
Not quite what you thought,
Nor need dream or want
Deceit and Deceive
Track Name: Somewhere In Between
Somewhere In Between (C F)

By the time you read this you’ll be 17
Smoking stolen cigarettes, writing bad poetry
Crushed out on a classmate who’s kind of a stoner
But you think she’s real cool and you wish you could know her.

By the time you read this you’ll be 22
Have your heart broken, a couple shitty tattoos.
High School will feel like a bad memory,
Now you’re washing the dishes at a place down on Holly.

CHORUS: BACKUP VOCALS: “SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN” x8

Somewhere in-between the stacks of book and papers,
Found a place to call your own and a reason to stay there
With a record collection, a single ray of light
You sleep through it every day, live only for the night.
Somewhere in-between the stacks of book and papers,
Found a place to call your own and a reason to stay there
With a record collection, a single ray of light
You sleep through it every day, live only for the night.

By the time you read this you’ll be 30-something
You’ll be out of the restaurants but you’ll still be hustling.
Free time will feel like a dream you have
About a time and a place you will never get back.

By the time you read this you’ll be nearly 40,
Have a real good laugh about a dog eared copy
Of Lesbian Poetry, the Anthology, from 1981
Sent like a time machine.

CHORUS: BACKUP VOCALS: “SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN” x8

Somewhere in-between the stacks of book and papers,
Found a place to call your own and a reason to stay there
With a record collection, a single ray of light
You sleep through it every day, live only for the night.
Somewhere in-between the stacks of book and papers,
Found a place to call your own and a reason to stay there
With a record collection, a single ray of light
You sleep through it every day, live only for the night.
Track Name: The Party's Over
The Party’s Over

[VERSE: G Em C D CHORUS: C G D G]

Was it the fever or the fear or the way he held the floor?
Was it the back-beat of the bass drum that just kept you wanting more?
Were you reeling from the poopers?
Was he just another screw?
Or we’re hell bent on making him the one you’d love so true?

Was it how the party ended, just when you finally felt so free?
Was it the death of the gay disco or the murder of the queens?
Was it the burying of bodies or one endless eulogy?
Or the government officials, “Quiet down don't make a scene.”

Turn on the lights
The Party’s over
Lost to the night
Forever young

Christopher Street
The Hudson River
Will keep on flowing
After we’re gone

Was it the way his body moved to the music you adored?
Or the way the disco ball just sent you spinning round the floor?
the glitter on his face, the sweat upon his brow?
His short shorts shirtless body moving to Dinosaur L

Was it the how we were so wild? how we sleeplessly endured?
The way raged against the night, against the cruelties of the world
In the seedy basements, back alleys, the dark clubs and the discos
For one moment felt alive, took all our shame and let it go

Turn on the lights
The Party’s over
Lost to the night
Forever young

Christopher Street
The Hudson River
Will keep on flowing
After we’re gone
Track Name: The Worst July on Record
The Worst July on Record

[VERSE: E B A B CHORUS: Low E, High E B A, Low E C#m B A]

It was the worst July on record,
Lost a dear dear friend to cancer
Then a suicide right after
Shook the scene right to the rafters
We all huddled close together
Sweating out the liquor
Arm-in-arm, shoulder to shoulder
We sang songs about departure

There was a wrinkle in the fabric
We all say each other older
Time and space it did collapse
And I was leaning on your shoulder
And the music it was loud
Not much one could say
My sarcasm crept right in
Come on, lets watch this shitty band play

Oh distraction, the pool the beach the fire
Late nights spent talking, the early morning sun
Oh distraction, the beer the weed desire
Call your old friends, make sure they’re not alone.

And the heat it was oppression
And the world was even worse
Can cops were killing in the streets
In gay clubs a massacre
And the media just loved it but it made all of us sick
All the murder of black people, trans women, the innocent.

Dog-piled in a hotel room,
No one sleeps alone tonight
The TV’s on, I’m kind of drunk
There’s no relief in sight
Tomorrow another memorial
Another fallen friend
All I can think, this is too much
Holy hell, just fuck this shit.

Oh distraction, the pool the beach the fire
Late nights spent talking, the early morning sun
Oh distraction, the beer the weed desire
Call your old friends, make sure they’re not alone.
Call your old friends, make sure they’re not alone.
Track Name: When Home was a Blue Sky
When Home was a Blue Sky

[VERSE: Asus Dsus BREAK: F# E D F# E D]

When Home was a Blue Sky
I sat captively craving

When Home was a Blue Sky
I patiently pondered

When Home was a Blue Sky
Was I always wanting

When Home was a Blue Sky
I just had the feeling

[Break]

When Home was a Blue Sky
Their ashes just scattered

When Home was a Blue Sky
We found ourselves howling

When Home was a Blue Sky
We're you buried beneath it

When Home was a Blue Sky
Did you wake on the wind?

[Instrumental jam on Asus and D]
Track Name: Dear Jeffrey
Dear Jeffrey

[VERSE: G D C D CHORUS: C D GDC C D Em / C D GDC C D G]

Dear Dear Jeffrey, oh please tell me
How is New York City?
Do the pretty boys all shine in your light?

Do you stay out all night dancing,
Just to watch the sun come rising?
Have you finally found a lover that feels right?

And have you found a way to fight the feeling with each day,
That says you’re not worth a damn thing, just go die?
And have you found a way to hold the feeling with each night,
That says you’re finally free to love, just go try?

Dear Jeffrey oh please tell me,
You still write poetry
While waiting for the subway home each night.
Are they songs for your lost father,
A sonnet for your new lover
Does it still bring you joy to write?

Like a piece of twine, we co-exist,
Though its been some time since we did twist
And turn the streets of the lower east side
Few and far apart these days,
I hope you know that I do take
Time to let you tumble round my mind.

And I hope you’ve found a way to fight the feeling with each day,
That says you’re not worth a damn thing, just go die.
And I hope you’ve found a way to hold the feeling with each night,
That says you’re finally free to love, just go try.

Dear Dear Jeffrey, oh please tell me
How is New York City?
Do the pretty boys all shine in your light?
Track Name: Keep on Livin'
Keep on Living

[C G F G]

For the times you got fucked senseless just to not feel so alone
For the wonder in discovering a Sadie Benning film
For the record spinning, Donna screaming, Don’t try suicide
There’s another way to paradise, only in your mind.

For the rumors in the hallway, you might be so different
And the tags upon your locker that said, die you fucking faggot.
For the innocence you lost, but the wisdom you did gain
Now you know what tender is, you know how to be brave.

For the feelings that do linger so much longer than they should.
For the moments when the anger is all you can see for miles
For revenge you knew was coming, but couldn’t quite yet taste,
But you knew would be so sweet, so you made it through the day.

For the glory holes you dreamed of, your secret circle jerks
For the late nights in the library bathroom on the 3rd floor
For the times you tumbled sentences, afraid to speak the words
As if coming out would change the very person that you were.

For the sissies and the queers who feel forever so alone,
For the queens who wake in glitter, well into late afternoon.
For the ones we’ve yet to meet, ‘cause they are still so young,
And the ones we will remember, long after they’re gone.

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